Romance what?
It's hard sometimes to think someone can be broken down so far that they don't even think romance is an option for them. They feel so down and out of touch, so numb to any sort of romantic feelings. Someone who dreams of romance and can write of romance in such a profound way, but has no idea how to reach within themselves to find how that feeling feels anymore. It kind of a hopeless existence when you think you're incapable of ever feeling anything romantic toward anyone ever again...you feel so alone, but you just don't want to disrupt the feeling of being content you find in the solitude. Connections fail and your not sure why you can't connect with anyone other than on a level of friendship. Feelings that use to happen so on accident don't seem to slip anymore and you don't find yourself accidentally falling in love with your unobtainable friends anymore and you sure don't feel yourself falling for that guy you went on a date with weeks ago.